Nov
19
2009
All I Could Do Was Ride It Out–My Depression That Is
Author: siggyAll I could do was ride out it out–my depression that is. I knew why. My wife reminded me it was a bad time. The “holidays” were coming up. That was always a hard time for me.
The holidays reminded me, particularly, I was separated from my kids. It reminded me of my divorce. I was always glad when Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year were over.
There are such high expectations during the Christmas season. I could never meet them. I was, also, afraid of disappointing people around me.
Of course, this year I had health concerns and was trying to figure out what control I could exert in that area. My depression was an accumulation of many things–a lot of which was not in my control.
I was not going to do any thing rash. I was just going to ride it out. I know most of the depression would lift when the new year came. That was comforting to know. And that was all I needed to know. My depression would end.
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