‘Give us each day our daily bread.’ (from the Lord’s Prayer) (in the New Testament).  We are to pray that each day Jesus will give us what we need.  We have to take one day at a time.  And do not look too far ahead.

Yes, God will provide for our needs.  One day at a time.  We have to deal with each day as it comes.  That is all we can pray for–each day that the Lord gives us.  Each day is a gift.  Food and shelter; that is all He promises us.  And He does that a day at a time.  That is how we have to pray–each day at a time.  ‘Give us each day our daily bread.’

We were going home from church the back way.  Two fawns disappeared into the undergrowth on the right side of us.  I am sure “mom” was nearby but we did not see her.  I had never seen twin fawns before.  I was thrilled.  It was the highlight of my day.  In the wintertime the town does not even plow that road when it snows.  It was a little bit off the beaten path.  It is not unusual to see deer in the fields there in the early morning or dusk.  I never know exactly what animal I will see.

Life Ain’t Fair

Author: siggy

Life ain’t fair.  There is no way to get around that.  Wealth is not distributed evenly.  Financial wealth is just one kind.  Gifts given to each individual are never equal and some people are more gifted than others.  That is why coveting is a sin and why each person is commanded to help those less fortunate and it is a sin to walk away and not help someone when it was in your power to do so.

Railing at your misfortune never accomplishes anything.  It makes it harder.  Instead of making the best of your situation.  It diffuses valuable energy that could be directed elsewhere more positively.  Life simply is not fair.  Some people suffer more than others.  And someone pointing out to you that you are better off than X or Y does not help much.  You do what you can and then rest.  And help those around you with whatever you got.  Give cheerfully and you will never be unhappy.

The Bouquet Of Flowers

Author: siggy

The bouquet of flowers was exquisite:  all kinds of sunflowers.  All shades of yellows and browns and small and big ones.  And I know they will not last, but today they are beautiful and I loved the sparkle in my wife’s eyes when she viewed them.  Beauty is so ephemeral–here today, gone tomorrow but today I will enjoy the flowers.  I can’t do more than that.  Life is always in a state of flux.  And we forget that.  The beautiful bouquet reminded me of that.  Life is to be enjoyed now.  Not later.  Or when you have become successful.  Years later.  Now.  Always now.

All I Could Do Was Dust

Author: siggy

All I could do was dust.  And listen to some music to counter my dark mood (the latest “Sugarland” CD).  Dusting is a mindless task.  In this house there is no lack of dust:  we have four dogs and seven cats.  Dusting is an unending job in this house.  In the process I changed a light bulb.  At least, I kept moving.  That is a good thing.  When I am depressed I don’t feel like doing that.  It can’t hurt.  And I may go on to something else after dusting.  Let us see what is going to happen next.

Sometimes I do not know how to get past my depression.  Sure I can view my life and give all kind of reasons why but that does not help me.  Somehow I need to chip away at it.  I just don’t know where to start.  I know things don’t make me happy.  It is not possessions that keep me going.  The things that are wrong in my life money can’t change.  It is hard listening to your ‘”tiny voice” when it is being drowned out by depression.  I just don’t know where to start.  Somehow I need to figure out what I really have any control of.  And start there.  Working on at (???) those things.  One by one.  That is all I can do.  And in the process accept the things that are out of my control.  I have a plan.  I just don’t know when the depression will start to lift.  It is just painful enduring it.

I keep looking at the hummingbird feeder viewed from my living room window.  I never know when one is going to come.  Last week I saw three at one time jostling for position to sip the nectar.  The same weekend my wife saw five at one time.  That means at least five hummingbirds know where the feeder is.  I love watching them hover over the feeder.  They are amazing.  Sometimes you might see two feeding at one time.  They are very protective of their space.  All I do is make sure they have nectar and they keep coming.  I am really privileged I can watch them from my living room window.  All you have to do is recognize the diverse variety of birds and thank the Maker for the display.  And that is just birds.  A very small part of His kingdom.  It is as if He had nothing better to do but create birds.  For His enjoyment and ours.

I am allowed to say the words, ‘I can’t!’  Granted my mate has heard those two words too often.  Nevertheless I am allowed to say them.  Sometimes she is being unreasonable insisting on something which I can’t fulfill.  Other times she is not and I have to try harder.  Nevertheless, I always have the right to say those words.  Along with the words, ‘I won’t.’  I have to set limits on other people’s demands, even my “other’s”.  “No” can be a pretty powerful word but you can’t go there all the time then it loses its force and your mate gets tired of your negativity.  You have to be more careful with its use.

It makes a difference how you eat.  Is your diet balanced?  This might make a difference in your energy level.  Lately, I have not been eating too well and running out of energy really quickly.  My wife’s diet has affected my meals:  we usually eat together and she has cut down on her cigarettes significantly.  Until recently she has been filling up on matzohs and other crunchy food.  All this has affected my diet for I usually make one or two good meals a day.  And often she does not want to eat for she has filled her belly on something else although not a very balanced meal.  She had to have something in her mouth to pacify her nicotine cravings.  She might be past this stage so we might eat together more normally.  I am hoping returning to a more balanced diet will return my energy level.  It does make a difference in how you eat.

I don’t know whether I will live that long:  the mattress we just bought is guaranteed for twenty years.  Frankly I don’t know if I will outlive the mattress.  In another twenty years I will be eighty-three.  I know my family is long-lived.  My Dad lived 91 years and my Mom was over 81 when she died.  Nevertheless I am not sure I will make it that long.  It gets me thinking, that is all.  I need to focus on the time allotted to me.  One never knows when one’s times runs out.

An animal does not know right from wrong–certainly not evil; a cat will chase down chipmunks and birds and mice.  They are just programed to do that.  A dog will automatically chase a squirrel or rabbit very seldom catching one.

My wife was yelling and screaming.  The dogs caught a squirrel that they trapped in my bird feed chest.  To make it worst, it was a squirrel we called “stubby”.  I was blamed for it for I was told to leave the food chest open so this would not happen.

A squirrel or some other animal gnawed a hole in the chest so they could enter from the outside.  I felt bad for the squirrel.  Our golden retriever and her two pups were blamed (and me) for its death.

I felt bad about the whole thing.  All I could do in the future was leave the chest open or possibly move it to the garage.