My Dad was dead twelve years and I was still angry at him. I still remember the last conversation I had with him and he said he was more impressed with the million dollars his future son-in-law made selling his company than anything I did. My writing did not matter to him. I tried to tell him, maybe, my words might have more effect on people than my future brother-in-law’s money. It was to no avail. Money meant more to him than anything else. I never got “the blessing” from him. And even today, years later I was still angry about his rejection of who I was. He was the one person I wanted to please. And even now the hurt and pain has not gone away.
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Somehow I need to talk less. I need to give my wife more empty spaces. I forget this all too often. I do not have to repeat myself unless it is evident she did not hear me or understand me. All this is very hard for me. I know I have to work on it.
Less is always more. It is too easy to fill up the blank spaces with words. I have to give my “other” a chance to reflect on my words. All this takes time. Communication is not immediate. This age of cell phones and other technology gives this illusion that communication is instant. It is the hardest thing in the whole world. It is work.
When I believe I am being perfectly clear in my communication with my wife, I find out I wasn’t.
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